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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 04:18

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

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All the time i was locked up.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My family never makes their pension either.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I couldn’t, believe it.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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Was to survive, this bastard.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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Put me off passion for life!!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I was 9 years of age.

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She was in good health!

He resisted the act ,that day.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I said to her

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Why did i forgive my father ?

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She loved him until the end.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

It was going to be , some day.

And i lived it daily.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

We were not on the streets..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

As i do to all so called friends.?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I could never make a relationship work though!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I think the readers, may guess!

But it wasn’t much.

We all went to grammer schools

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I will be 64.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He knew the spot.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Comes on , in middle age.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

What did i know ?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But ive been too sick for many years..

She wouldn,t have been !

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Especially a lifetime of it.

She married twice! .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Who then, do I blame.?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I don,t even have a pension.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

One cannot live in the past .

I waited trembling.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Where the ultimate outsiders.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She found it foreign!.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My life is so biszare .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

So whats the point in blame.

I have no regrets .

When she asked me how she looked .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But, we were locked up after school.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I was scared of men, in general

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I write beautiful poetry .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

So, i spoilt her more .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was seconnd youngest,

I was very sick at this time too.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Im still living with it.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

This is soul school!.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Would this be the day?

Ive learnt so much.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..